I don’t even know where to begin, but to say damn! It’s been a long and crazy ass 9 months. I must have written this post over and over at least 6 times. Seriously I am not trying to write a fucking novel here. I want to give the highlights of the past several months (Since my last post) but shit I don’t even know where to begin, seriously. I have had so much happen it’s like trying to rewind a season of your fav TV show and your dam DVR is busted. I will give the highlights and important details from the last few months and then just start anew. Try to keep up!
M had a baby girl in February; my little grandbaby is already 5 months old gees! Special little doll face I love her. M lives with her dumb ass boyfriend/baby daddy and his dumbass family and his other kid who’s almost 3 now. But I digress! I have not fully adopted the role of grandma, its hard at only 35 to feel like a grandparent. M and I are working out our issues. I hate that she and my granddaughter (baby m) live with those people but at this time it is the best. I and still not raising any babies, and she still thinks they can live on love!
L and I did it … we’ve been together almost 10 years, engaged for 5 as of Aug 2010. Love him, love to choke him, and love to make love to him. He’s my “true north” (little ATWT throw back, god I miss that show)! He the ying to my yang and all that sappy carp that goes with it too! Yeah bitches I finally got my man fully, totally and legally! Ha-ha we were married this past May and lord oh mighty what a good ass time we had! L drank like a fish, danced like he was 20something (he’s 47), and then passed out after the reception and woke up the next morning a shade of green no one should ever be! It was great 63 of our closest friends and family celebrated with us. Spent a week long honeymoon in Vegas… I wouldn’t change anything, but my last name which is like working a second job some days... ugh but after a 5 year engagement I’m not complaining, ok maybe a little bit.
L’s son B who is now 19 (old ass) is finally realizing life doesn’t owe him anything; he has to work for it! He has a part time job, is finally getting ready to go to college (he will still live at home, joy) and learning how to drive. Although he thinks that simply because his dad and I have cars that he will and should be allowed and entitled to use one or both cars at will when he has a valid licenses. Um yeah I don’t think so. See again a work in progress! And he still insists he is a secret ninja. Kids!
My baby girl J, the youngest only 10, is going on who the hell knows what age. She is like me in so many ways. Unfortunately not all good ways, she has weight issues, and low self-esteem which we are working on and it’s not easy. We’ll get into that another time, it’s a hard subject since I can relate.
I am still as this same bullshit ass job, so much for change. I actually went on 3 interviews which all turned out to be a big waste of my time. I decided last June I wanted to work for myself and I still do I want to be an event planner so I have my path, now to get all my shit together. I can’t really pursue that until I fix some major shit in my personal finances. I’m in debt and it’s bad, sadly I have not included L in on just how bad it is. That can be called lying by omission and I feel awful but I need a plan before I need a war with my husband.
So that’s a in a nut-shell recap on the old shit. I’m still fucking nuts, a little happier ;-), but still me, struggling with my own sanity and life, but damn aren’t we all.
